Angry at God
At small group last night, something triggered me to think about a time I had been angry at God. And to be quite honest, I couldn't think of one.
I thought about how I felt when my dad died 3 months before my wedding, which I thought might be a time I would feel angry but I didn't. I felt sad and I asked why but I didn't get angry.
I tried to think of some other times, like maybe before I considered myself "Christian". I thought about my motorcycle accident when I was 17 and was accepted into college but couldn't go because of being in the hospital. I was angry at God then either. Surprisingly, I wasn't even angry at the person who hit us. I forgave him right away.
So I guess I have never been angry at God. I've doubted my faith and the reality of it but never got angry. It seemed that everyone at the group had been angry at God at one time or another (although only a couple of people spoke up about it).
I wonder if it's normal to get angry at God. I wonder if I'm normal for not. Or maybe I have gotten angry at God and just don't remember.
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2 comments:
Thats very intersting. I have noticed the same thing. I have never been angry at God and when I have been in situations like your own I have pondered that. But to me it just seems silly for me ,a mere human, to angry at the almighty God. He made me, he sustains me, and if it were not for Him I would not exist.
I do not know if our current church practices nurture in us the vulnerability of being angry. We Christians are trained to be nice in many ways, and this does not mesh well with anger. I too find myself incapable of feeling anger towards God... maybe that's good... maybe not. But I do fear vulnerability, even with God.
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